One more month!

I just realized that in one month my sister will be living here in El Paso with my husband, Ava & myself!



I am so happy that I will finally have someone here to talk with and hang out. We bought a bed today so we could put our old one in the guest bedroom an it just felt so good to know that my sister will finally just be a room away! I've never really been friendless, everywhere I go I usually adapt well and meet people but El Paso has been pretty tricky! & ive been so sad.



I'm very excited though because today I was invited by someone in te church we visited to go to a group called moms;) I just feel so wonderful today and it all started with the fact that my husband loved the church we went to! I am so unbelievably happy and I know I will adjust & adapt to El Pasoz plus once my sister is here I know we will be having late movie nights and tanning days.



 What a great weekend. Praise be to god.

Will someone take the knife out of my back?

I woke up to a text message from a close friend of mine this morning saying "so I guess chels & Rick are together". I'm not sure what a person should say to that? For those of you who don't know Chels is my "best friend" of 9 years & Rick is my ex. (Of 2 years) I've known or awhile they had been seeing each other and cut Chelsea out of my life soon after. I guess I just don't know where to go from here.

 Yes, I am married and I do have a beautiful child but does that make this ok? The entire time I was with Rick, Chelsea wanted us to break up! I just feel so betrayed, who are these people I allow into my life? Is it wrong of me to want to slap this girl? I just don't understand some people. I know I have to remember I can only control my own actions but I just don't understand how people continue to hurt people they love knowingly! What has the world come to? Again, are there any honest people in the world? I'm just so disgusted by the actions of this girl. So manipulative! 

I know I need to let go of the betrayal but I need god. So here is my prayer " amazing love, guide me though this journey and cleans my heart of things that would hurt you. Teach me to act instead of react and continue to give me your undying love & affection. Amen." It's going to take time but I'm glad I found out who this girl was before she baptized my daughter. Good night, & may we all see tomorrow.

A rainy day blog

Today as I was sitting at home I was thinking about something that has been really heavy on my heart. Lately I have been filled with so much anger. It seems I've been betrayed by everyone I thought loved me this past month. I just don't know how to forgive some people.



 I've always been filled with so much love. I've been told I love to much, but I guess I love like god. It's hard for me not to love people immediately. I put my heart out there all the time because I assume most people are as honest as I am and I've come to realize that I am sadly mistaken. I just don't know where to go from here. Do I contine to love others the way I do or do I just let that part of my heart go cold. Are their any pure hearted people in the world anymore? Am I the only one? & am I nieve for believe that there is good in everyone? My husband sure thinks so. He says I don't cut ties soon enough & by not doing that I get hurt. I just don't know how to rid myself of my forgiving heart. I want to believe that there are other people in the world who naturally love everyone they meet because that's what god would want of us. Love isn't just an intimate thing and I wonder if that's what confuses most. Just a few thoughts for a rainy afternoon. Until next time...XOXO

FIrst day on the blog...

THis is my first day on the blog. Im still trying to learn how to use this and get all the liks set up so bear with me. I hope all you beautys have a great night. XOXO