Saturday, June 29, 2013

Deployment blues

I don't know about anyone else but let me tell you Deploment is for the birds! I'm trying my best to stay positive & strong for my baby girl but I feel so alone. I thought moving home would make things easier but they are just worse. I feel like everyone's lives keep going forward and I am just on hold waiting for my life to come home. I don't think I've ever miss anyone so much in my life, it's painful. & on top of all that I am hardly getting any rest because my daughter loves to just cat nap. It so rough. I'm so ready to be home with my husband. I just want to know he is safe. I do not know how single mothers do it. It amazes me to see how much my life has changed in just one year. & to add gasoline to the fire burning in my heart it is mine & my husbands 9 month anniversary. Today just sucked, I'm praying for tomorrow though.

Thursday, May 23, 2013

It's ok Thursday

It's ok that I finally had some time to take a nice shower without rushing out to make sure Ava is ok.

It's ok that I am going on a week with no lovin...I miss my husband

It's ok that I feel like if your not with me your against me.

It's ok that i feel like a whale & may even look like one.

It's ok that it is 10:30 and I am tired.

It's ok that I haven't talked to my husband tonight & I'm worried about him.

It's I'm that I my see people I despise this weekend.

It's ok Thursday...

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Life w/ a side of Coke.

To my surprise i woke up to a surprising and unwanted message on twitter yesterday from a ex boyfriend that was also unwanted! Just a little back round on the relationship i packed his shit & asked him to leave! Well to my surprise he is now dating a girl who is a friend of a friend of my cousin and it just so happend the friend of a friend of my cousin was at my house and decided it might be cute to put on blast that her friends new bf does coke! to my surprise it just happened to be my ex boyfriend. I was shocked, only because he never even smoked weed or anything close to it when we were together but i didnt comment much on the situation. Somehow word got back to him that i knew and he went on a rant basically of everything sour of our past realtionship and what he does now is none of my business. It turns out he got the story twisted, he was told i was asking about him and i had to bring to light the fact that if i didnt care about him then why would i now being that i now have a child and am married! let me ust give a news flash to the exs of married couples, WE DONT CARE ABOUT YOU! GET THE FUCK OVER YOURSELVES, and to my ex boyfriend BLOW me!

The Liebster Award

Big thanks to Kodie at Confessions of An Army Housewife  for the nomination of The Liebster Award. This is my first nomination and I am so grateful. Thanks again beauty.

What exactly is this award? This award is to be presented to blogs who have less than 200 followers. Awesome? Right? I thought so too! Such a great way to spread the word and love for us newer and smaller blogs.

Here are the deets. After being acknowledged, you should...-Acknowledge the blog that nominated you in a post.-Tell 11 facts about yourself.-Answer the 11 questions the nominating blogger created.-List 11 bloggers with less than 200 followers that you believe deserve some recognition.-Post 11 questions for them to answer.-Notify all the bloggers selected that they have been nominated.-And finally, you can't nominate the blog who nominated you.

So let's get this started shall we!

11 Facts About Myself-

I always said I wouldn't get married or have kids.
It's hard for me to believe I ever lived without my daughter & husband.
I secretly favor my little cousin Estevan
I dream of being a country music singer.
I am in LOVE with DVR
Someday I hope to see the seven wonders of the world.
I am a concert whore. I live to hear live music!
I hope to be a social worker...eventually.
I forgive easily.
I do not drink alcohol but I do miss it.
I tend to love everyone, some people would say I took the phrase love like Jesus to literally!

11 Questions

What is your favorite thing to do in the gym? OR what is your favorite class to take?
I love to stair master or yoga!

If you could change your career to anything, what would it be?
At the moment being at home with my daughter is my dream job.

Its late, you need a midnight snack, what is your go to in your pantry/fridge right now?
Probably a cutie! (The small oranges)

Copy and paste your favorite gif!

If you were to get a tattoo, what would it be?
I am getting "I love you" in my husbands handwriting on my ring finger.

If your Facebook or Instagram was disabled for a week, how long could you endure it without going crazy.
I could live without Facebook but not Instagram!

What is your favorite old Disney movie?
The Little Mermaid

If you could own one animal, of any kind, what would you choose?
A giraffe!
What is one thing of your husband/boyfriend's that you would get rid of?

If you could time travel to one major event in history, where would you go?
Pearl Harbor

Do you know about Scentsy? If not, ask me about it! ;) But what is your favorite Scentsy product?!
I love my sun kissed citrus bar❤

I nominate this award too

My questions for you...
1. How did you meet your husband?
2. What is your favorite home cooked meal?
3. What word would the people who know you best use to describe you?
4. What is your dream vacation?
5. What is your favorite childhood memory?
6. Copy & paste your favorite gif.
7. Who has had the greatest impact on your life?
8. Top five songs you can't help but sing in the car.
9. Favorite movie line?
10. Dream job?
11. Favorite mix drink?

Sunday, April 28, 2013

Sunday Social

-Did you ever sleepwalk as a child?
I do believe I did. I remember my mom telling me a story about how I tried to climb the wall.

-Did you ever run away or sneak out of the house?
I never snuck out. I never had too. I was always trusted & home before curfew. & I did try to run away once when my mom was married. I ran to my pompos.

-Did you have an imaginary friend?
No. Not that I recall.

-Did you ever go tissue papering?
Not a house! We did tp a gate that lead to a teachers house we couldn't get to the house cause the gate was locked so we tpd the gate.

-Did you ever sneak TV shows you weren't allowed to watch?
I think I was pretty much allowed to watch whatever but I didn't start watching tv till I was a little older. I use to go and play outside.

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

She Who Waits Also Serves

It was around 1:30 when i recieved a phone call i'd hoped we'd dodged. It was my husband, he is deploying. I could never put the emotions I felt in that moment into words. I still dont know how I feel, I know it makes me sick. I dont know how to function without him. & what about ava, she is only 3 months old and when he comes home she will be close to 1 year. I knew there was always a possibility but I guess I just thought it was 1 in a million. You would think as Army Wives we would be prepared for this moment, but we arent. We are never really ready to wave our love goodbye. So often we take the simple things for granted. The times we make them dinner, hug them, hold their hand, a simple kiss. Its true that HOME is where our husbands are. I know my heart will stop the day he leaves but i have to make the most of these three weeks because if worse comes to worse i have to prepare for the fact that he may not come home. I feel like my heart is being ripped open. How are my daughter and I gonna say goodbye? My husband is our strenght, hes what keeps us going. I keep hoping thinking this is a dream. I just feel so empty. I know I have to pray & id be honored if you all pray for us. 

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Do you remember?

Do you remember where you were when the towers fell from the sky? I do. I was headed to school. We sat in my math teachers class and watched the news on her computer. I was in 6th grade. I remember thinking it wasnt as big of a deal as everyone was making it, little did i know the effect it had on our country and the tragity it would bring so many families. A few years later i visited new york and what was now known as "ground zero" and as i stood outseide the gated area I cried. I guess i didnt really relize the tragity till it was right there in my face. I couldnt understand why another country would do this, because they dont like the way we live? Because it is against their religion? I now grasp the situation completly and here we are yet again. Yesterday when my husband came home and asked what had happen in Boston I told him i had heard there was a bombing at the time i still hadnt linked that the boston marathon was also going on yesterday. Another terrist attack has threatened our country, just when we were restoring hope from the last terrist attack. & I cant help but wonder if it will alter my life this time? Will my husband deploy? What will happen in the months to come? What about the lives takena and people injered? Then i look at my precious daughter born just this year. & in her short 3 months of life we Obama was re-elected, the Catholic religion elected a new pope & Boston was invated by a terroist and bombed. What is our world coming to? It sadddens and sickens me to see the hate that is fueling so many people. How did we get here? When did we get here? WHen will it end? What can we do to help? THose are the my questions. I will be praying for the families effected by the boston bombing and the community itself. My only hope is that you are all doing the same